So 39 days sober and I’m done with cigarettes as on Monday.
I’m vaping so I don’t know who would consider that actually “quitting smoking”, but to me it is.
Vaping, to me, is more like a patch, a nicotine inhaler, the gum… it’s just an aid in quitting.
Baby steps. It’s all about the baby steps while I’m still in early recovery.
I’m doing well with my sobriety, although my outpatient treatment has become a little more difficult.
A lot of new people has brought a whole new set of issues.
Know-it-alls. I don’t dig them. They irritate me. I don’t want to be around them.
I’ve also found that treatment is causing me a lot more to experience a lot more triggers than staying at home does.
At home, it’s just me, my husband, and the kids. We play, watch movies, watch the kids play, have dinner… I keep myself busy at home so I don’t think about things.
Treatment causes me to pause my thinking, to listen to others talk about their addiction.
It’s just hard.
I have my workbooks at home that help me too.
This is the one I’m currently working on (Courtesy of my Dad and Stepmom):
I’m only on Chapter 3 but it’s already proving helpful.
If you struggle with addiction to, I would most definitely recommend this book.
I also recommend the movie My Name is Bill W.
This film reconstructs the true story of stockbroker William Griffith Wilson, a World War I veteran whose small drinking problem becomes a serious addiction after he loses his fortune in the stock market collapse of 1929. Wilson’s career and his domestic life are in tatters when he meets Dr. Robert Holbrook Smith also struggling with a drinking problem. The two form a support group that becomes the basis for the organization Alcoholics Anonymous.
It’s old, but so good.
This movie helped change the way I thought about having a drink. At the end of the movie, there is a man at AA, and he tells Bill “I just want my kids back”..
Can’t tell you how much that hit home with me.
Is a drink worth my family? Hell no. Worth losing my kids? My husband? Not in a million years.
Anyway – I encourage addicts to check out the movie and the workbook.
In the meantime, I’m going to continue my sobriety and try my best to stop vaping as well.
Best of luck to anyone else out there struggling with addiction.